I could have stayed in that spiral for years.
If Marianne hadn't said anything to me that Thursday evening.
Marianne has been my best friend for 22 years. We have dinner together every Thursday at the same restaurant in the 15th arrondissement, ever since we found out we were both going to have daughters in the same month. She is 62 years old. Three years older than me.
That Thursday, at some point during dessert, she took out her lipstick to touch up. And I noticed something about her that I had never noticed before.
She had eyes.
Not young woman's eyes. Not eyelash extensions. Eyes. Natural but visible, structured, present lashes. At 62 years old.
I said to her: "Marianne, did you do something to your eyes?"
She smiled. She said to me: "You finally noticed. It's been 5 months."
She told me about a French mascara she had discovered by chance. Not at Sephora. Not in a magazine. A pharmacist friend had recommended it to her. Specifically designed for women after 50, 60, 70 years old. A tapered fiber brush calibrated for fine lashes. A formula with keratin and vegetable oils. No panda effect at 4 PM. Makeup removal with warm water without pulling out lashes.
I listened to her, nodding. I thought to myself, "Another thing that won't do anything."
Do you know how many mascaras I've tested in 30 years of beauty journalism? Hundreds. I received 12 a month in press kits. None held up on lashes like mine at 59. All clumped, ran, or pulled out the few lashes I had left when I removed my makeup.
But Marianne had something in her eyes that I hadn't seen for a long time. She had present eyes. Not spectacular. Just present.
She said to me: "Isabelle, I'm going to tell you something. At our age, we're no longer looking for a mascara that gives extensions. We're looking for a mascara that revives our real lashes without breaking them. That's all. That's all we ask for."
I ordered it when I got home that same evening. 29 euros, guaranteed 365 days fully refunded if I wasn't satisfied. I thought to myself: "At 30 euros, the risk is nil."
The mascara is called Serolys. The brand is French, formulated by a pharmacist.
I had never heard of it in any of my press kits. None of the major mainstream mascara brands I knew distributed it. No beauty influencer talked about it. None of the big Sephora ads featured it.
And yet, it was the only French brand in the world specifically formulated for what my lashes had become at 59.
I received the tube 4 days later.